-Forward, Beyonce Lemondade
I’m a Taurus and one thing about Taurus’ that you should know is that we dislike change. But for some reason this time I opened it with open arms and a one-way ticket to the USA. Alright let me back up, earlier in July I quit my job and headed out to LA to pursue my dreams of being an actress…..I’m just kidding this isn;t one of those stories.
I did quit my job, but I moved to the lovely state of Illinois and I have called it home for about a week now.
Scared? Nah. Excited? I guess. Apprehensive? Ding ding ding. I’ve been very apprehensive about this move for a while now. I mean, I left my job, my friends, some of my family, to move to a place where I knew no one. Granted I’m living with my aunt and uncle, but there is that feeling of- you know- that first day in a new school, not knowing anything or anyone.
There’s no secret the Caribbean, more so Dominica is different from America. In this pothole-less, uniformed housing chaos dubbed the land of opportunities, no one tells you the struggles of the first couple weeks, first couple months.
At first, I distracted myself with settling in, getting a couple of things done, but now that time has passed. Just as the days seem longer, so does the week and the feeling of a purgatorial waiting. I mean this a foreign feeling to me since I’ve had a job straight out of high school and for the past four years everything else but myself has been a priority.
Take it from me, when they say don’t just go to work for 8 hours and come home to not work on yourself, listen. Because when I started to, it was a bit too late in my opinion and I found myself in a slump, and uninspired, unmotivated automatic slump.
I’m working on that.
For now, I will be focusing on the next ‘next’ steps. Whatever that maybe. Maybe finding a job, finishing enrolling in university,, you know, normal stuff. Stuff that people expect me to do. That’s the plan, at least for now.
Till next time….